of endings...

(love of my life by southborder in the background)

aloha!

katatapos ko lang kaninang madaling araw ang earthX, comics courtesy of manager 2won. astig. miss ko tuloy philo. angas ng usapan, tsaka characters, ma-eexercise left part ng brain mo. the story was about the supposed end of the world, without humans, because all of us have already mutated into mutants, inhumans. andun lahat ng marvel comics' superheroes and supervillains. except yung mga tigok na, pero may cameo sila kahit pano. kaka-hangoveer nga ending. thanks talaga kay manager. the comics had been with me for 2 sems already but i haven't gotten around reading it because of the pesky (but educational) readings my profs kept giving me.

it's what..the 8th of may? hapi mothers' day sa lahat ng nanay! ala si madir dito e, kabababa kanina kasama bro ko at mga tita't pinsang bumisita, para bisitahin nanay niyang may sakit, bali lola ko. 84 na siya, ata, at nabalian siya hips kasi nadulas. options: operation (we're talking metals here) or wheelchair. wheelchair na lang daw sabi ng magkakapatid, baka di na kayanin ni lola e. yun lola kong yun nung kalakasan niya, alang kasing tapang, katakot talaga, tas ngayon, ang fragile niya. kalungkot. napapanaginipan na daw ng lola ko lolo ko na patay na. kaya ko, yaw ko tumanda ng sobrang tanda..

malapi na end ng summer vacation. for me. luwas na ko manila sa 16th. KG stuff. di ko man maaabutan bday ni pa. oh vel.

ala na ko maisip sabihin.
eto na end ng entry ko.
bow.

isla at iba pa

aloha!

isla... pulmonya... alon... malaria... balyena... kontra... ang saya-saya.
andito ako ngayon tuguegarao. ive been in cagayan for the past.. uhmm.. basta since march 27, with a perfprming group, konragapi. angas talaga. walang kasing. lahat na. mananatili ako hanggang abril 12 o 13 dito.
kulay ulikba na ko mga tol. kaw ba naman mag-lampitaw araw araw ng tig 2-6 hours.
im proud to say na di ako nahilo o nasuka sa first ever island hopping ko.
yey! nakarating ako ng fuga, calayan islands(calayan proper, dilam at dibay) at camiguin; mga islang kabilang sa cagayan na silang matatagpuan sa baba ng babuyan islands. isang araw na byahe pa e, nasa taiwan na kami. astig no?
saya kasi dami ko nakilalang bagong friends, dami kong nagawang bagay na di ko akalaing magagawa ko, nakapag-judge ako ng beauty pageant, nakakita ng 2 humpback whales, nag-chill habang topload ng lampitaw isang maalon at mahanging araw (gataas ng barko, men!), nakasakay ng bus na 14 hrs byahe, nakaligo sa bukal, nakapag-caving sa callao, at kung anik anik pa. basta, di ko ipagpapalit. sobrang nakakapagod at nakakaaliw at the same time. kalungkot lang kasi nagsiuwian na mga ka-batch naming nag-islang hopping, 3 na lang kaming naiwan with the 2nd batch. miss o na sila sobra.
daming nangyayari sa akin ngayon, napagiiwanan na ko. di ko lam na patay na si pope (pero napanaginipan ko siya dating namatay na), di ko lam kung nong day ngyon, at di ko lam til kahapong mem na ko ng LAYA! yehey! congratulate niyo ko! gusyto ng gusto ko talagang makapadd, kaya astig!
di pa ko tapos cwts ko, pero kebs.
di ko pa lam grades ko, kebs uli.
di pa ko nakaka-crs., isa pang kebs.
baka minamalaria na ko, di ko pa lam, may kebs ako. nauubos na 14 days incubation pd niya sa katawan ko...
gusto ko na ring umuwi kasi maraming nag-aantay sa kin dun, pero i wouldnt want to pass up on opportunities like this. kasi, when i travel and see nature, when i meet new friends, and gain new experienes, that's when i feel LIFE.
LIFE. what a powerful word. that'd be another story, another entry.

dreaming dreams

for the past months that i've been staying in my boarding house, i've had sleeps void of dreams. it kind of frustrates me because dreaming meant entries for my dream journal (began it last year) for one, and empty dream thoughts for the day. part of the fun of dreaming is the emotions you get when you awake. sometimes you get up and wonder why you feel scared and tired and sweaty like you've just did five laps of running, or, you wake the moment you hear yourself sobbing and discover your pillow stained with tears, drops of which still running down your cheeks. and sometimes, you wake up with a tickling feeling in your heart, like you just landed from a leisure fly. i get joy in indulging my thoughts with those kinds of emotions from dreams, even reliving them over and over in my head the whole day, until i dream another dream and the cycle goes on. i love the wonders dreaming gives. i enjoy my attempts of interpreting my dreams. i love the confusion a seemingly recurring dream gives. i see beauty in the lack of cohesion in dreams. i love dreaming so much i think DREAM is one of my favorite dreams.
but why, why don't i dream dreams anymore?

kung kaya...

yeah!
alang magawa...
sadsad na, gamit na gamit na ang linyang yun, kaya ibahin natin...
matumal ang life ngayon...makapag-blog nga.
sana maaliw ako. maaliw kayo.para masaya.
gudlak sa'tin.
bow.